I know this is uncommon of me to make a post like this. But. Right now. While I feel the barest of something. I just want to say, I miss not feeling apathetic. Feeling shit. I miss it. Months have gone by and I haven’t felt a thing. I watched a girl cut in front of me, I cut for her, and I felt no single clear definable emotion. I held the blade in her hand and helped her. Nothing.
I’m sorry for all of you out there that I might trigger with this. I just want to say, I miss it, and that there are worse things out there than hating every fiber of your being.
Right. So. I should get internet on the 25th. Should. We can only hope. Till then I’ll be left with video games, books, sex, anime and over a hundred gigabytes of porn. I may not live these next 3 days.